Dewana Lenae

A Daughters' Devotional Dewana Lenae

I'd never imagined I'd get to this day, and have to face the fact that my father is no longer here. How could he leave me without saying goodbye? Didn't he love me? I have wrecked my brain trying to come up with an excuse for him, but nothing I come up with is good enough. I'm not surprised that I found out about his death two weeks after he died. I am shocked that his family ignored my existence to the point where they didn't even put me in his obituary. To be denied in life, and in death. I felt lower than life. But a small piece of me still yearned for him to hug me, for him to tell me I am beautiful, and to hear him say, "I love you." But instead, I was left, I was abandoned, and I was forgotten. And then, I felt a touch like never before. Someone else telling me that He is my father, and has been this entire time. He told me that He would never leave me nor forsake me. How could I believe this mysterious character? The one that contributed to my life left, so how can I believe Him? I wrote these feelings during my darkest hour of pain and I used these words when the enemy would try to sneak and tell me who I wasn't. This devotional is a collection of daily affirmations that fueled me back to life, and helped me on my journey to become a daughter and helped me trust and love God as Abba, my Father.