Deni Iseli

Free as HSP with dissociation Deni Iseli

In my negative childhood I had, above all, to keep my mouth shut. I was not allowed to express myself freely. There was one-sided communication. The other family members spoke, and I listened. Due to the presence of the mental disorders PTSD (Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder), narcissism and codependency, there were all kind of rules in our family. As HSP, I was an easy target for mutual (un)conscious influence and mutual (un)conscious manipulation. My father had the phobia for microbes. My parents could not get along. I had a tendency for low blood pressure. Because of that tendency and the long lasting stress in my youth, I had too little oxygen in my brain for a long time and my neurotransmitters worked less and less well. Now that I am 62 years old, I now know, for myself, the causes of my negative childhood. The restrictive way of thinking in the family had hindered my personal development. The most important thing now is that I take myself seriously, as a person, as a HSP and as a HSS. The most important thing now is that I take my own observations seriously. The most important thing now is that I take my own conclusions seriously. And that I act accordingly. I have had many different temporary jobs in the Netherlands and outside the Netherlands. Those temporary social contacts lasted long enough, to realize that I grew up in a dysfunctional family. Those temporary social contacts lasted long enough, to discover that I can communicate in a normal, positive way with people. Through my work experience, my life experience, my human knowledge and my psychological knowledge, I now feel freer in my thinking and acting then in my youth. That has to do with my way of thinking. Everyone can feel as free in his thinking and acting as I do. It depends on how you think.