Philip Ferriell

Hear Me Cry Philip Ferriell

The rural atmosphere of the 1950's Midwest provided a picture-book image of a simpler, small-town existence. Country living normally supplied a greenhouse for childhood innocence to flourish and mature, with little threat of harm. Unfortunately, one unsuspecting child in that era fell prey to the most despicable predator crawling on the earth.



Even with the pseudo security of preacher parents, and the love and protection of a much older sibling, perverse evils tainted Vivian Dean's childhood dreams. At the tender age of five, innocence and trust cruelly vanished from her life at the hands of one sickening event, setting in motion a string of abuses lasting nearly fifteen years.



In her story, Vivian recalls the horrific intrusions from the very men who should have assured her protection: neighbors, pastors, relatives, and especially police officers. Even when the young and confused Vivian mustered the courage to report her attackers, the family she loved, trusted, and counted on for protection rebuked her "exaggerated lies."



With nowhere to turn, Vivian remained helpless to thwart the trail of predators, until at the age of 18, a neighbor cruelly abducted, drugged, and hauled her unconscious to Florida to fulfill his deviant whims. With her life seemingly worthless, and unable to thwart the abuses and attacks, Vivian spiraled into the depths of drugs and alcohol, crashing at the bottom of a suicide attempt.



The compelling true story of Vivian Dean tumbles unwillingly into the depths of Hell, where her only hope for happiness popped up in a pill or bottle, and spun her emotionally wild like a carnival ride. If not for her lingering faith in God, survival from a pathetic, additive life would've been an impossibility.



Even long after rehabbing from the abuses, Vivian's secret demons continually wrestled for control of her life, jeopardizing her nearly four-decade relationship with the one man she could trust. After years of hiding her embarrassments, the tortures of secrecy and the denials of her family threaten to pull her under its dark influence once again.



Will Vivian's past continue to control her life and push her deeper into depression? Will a new addiction lead her down a path of self-destruction? Will anyone believe her when she confesses unbelievable truths? Will anyone love her after all the degradation she's endured?



... Will anyone hear her cry?