C. Eldon Taylor

Hellfires of Grief: Love Poems C. Eldon Taylor

Hellfires of Grief: Love Poems is a collection of 222 poems written after the disembodiment of my beloved. I use the word disembodiment rather than death or death to the body since my beloved's beautiful radiant spirit left her physical body to return to the spirit realm. The words in my journals were inadequate to express my experiences of loss, grief, and despair. I converted the raw words of grief in my journals into poems to express in words the language of my tears, broken heart, and the hellfires of grief.

Tear's Words

poems
my grief concentrated
what my tears say when I listen
my tears insisted I translate them into words
inspiration from my soul
soul's blood
been said tears are healing
if tears are healing
perhaps tear's words
may be healing too

It is my hope, wish, and intent sharing the tears of grief translated into words brings others a measure of comfort and healing energy to all who read them.

Hellfires of Grief

hellfires of grief
invisible to the naked eye
black fire created by loss
not like ordinary fire
greater the loss
hotter the fire
longer the burning
disembodiment of my soulmate
creates hottest fire of all
burning on and on
burning away impurities
regrets remorse longing fears
until all that remains is love
hellfires of grief
continue to burn and burn
now and then
I see a touch of gold with silver
around the edges
mostly it is black
invisible to the naked eye
with more impurities as the fuel
hellfires of grief burn on and on
till all that remains is love
I wonder what that will look like

The 222 poems describe the raw landscape of grief experienced during the first eighteen months after the disembodiment of my beloved and the beginning of healing. Poems include images of alchemy, subtle energy, Taoism, I Ching, golden dreams, love beyond, soul, and subtle spirit realm. Written as part of the struggle towards healing and published to share healing energy with others experiencing their own versions of the hellfires of grief.